The resident guest

When we work with a PC, there are programs that are called resident programs. These programs are not seen by any person, but are there. The PC needs them to run. These programs are always running though people do not realise about it.

As a PC has resident programs, a mind can have resident guests. Someone that no one else can see, but that is there all the time. In a subtile mode maybe. But there.

Today she waked up. She did many things. All the things she usually does. She was smiling, watching, thinking, doing something, talking.

All the time her mind was dealing with two different levels. In the foreground, she had her normal life and activities. And in the background, the resident guest was there. People hopefully did not realise about him, but he was there all the day.

Difficult sensation to describe, but I guess that easy to understand. To have conversations and do things but as well be thinking about him, in a resident mode. Under the surface, her thoughts remain the same. I guess this is what people use to call "hiding" emotions or thoughts. To be pretending to pay attention to something, but not really (or at least not totally) be doing it.

Tough exercise for the eagle. But today it was not that bad. She managed not to cry. Her eyes in some moments tried to do it, but they lost the battle.

Tomorrow she will try to pay more attention to the foreground and less attention to the background. Maybe she will be able to :)